How has 2020 changed your life?

How does ANYthing not?

For change is inevitable— turning page, ticking time, crossing over, shifting shadows…

Transition and perception, however, now that is a choice to experience.

We’re you as shocked as I was about 2020?

***THIS is my perplexed look (do you see it?)**

6 days to the conclusion, completion, and closing of this cycle year…

WHAT do you FEEL energetically about your upcoming year and continuation to this new era?

Yes, there’s a collective energetic feel,

…BUT personally, FIRST I rest on the individual energy I choose to cultivate before I will submit myself to the general consciousness.

WHY is that?

Because I can ONLY control my own house “my Soul” and that is the realm I have full authority over and can make the most difference and change.

Which is within The S.E.L.F.

I don’t experience sufferings as most people do.

I’m aware it exists.

I used to feel bad that I’m not experiencing grief and pain like the majority of the population.

Yes, it can feel real.

I used to think empathy is high ranking and that I too need to ride that wave.

I prefer Compassion.

I used to feel guilty that I’m laughing more, goofy, and enjoying life than feeling lonely.

I redefined the word.

I used to think something is wrong with me if Broadway isn’t a highway I want to jump on.

I’m on my authentic path.

I used to force myself to like what mass production creates.

I’m the creator of my life.

I used to be the number one hater of myself.

I see, hear, know, and receive me fully.

Thank a fucking stone*** I’m constantly evolving.

I’m not even the same person yesterday.

Evolution is beautiful.

The ability of Humanity to choose and choose wisely.

If I don’t like something, I CAN CHANGE!

If I reason out my limitation, I CAN KEEP IT!

Whatever you say, you’re right.

No matter what I choose to experience is mine to have, embrace and enjoy, or cry about it.

Truly truly, the Treasure of Humanity is the Vastness of the Experiences that we can feel in THIS earthen vessel called, The BODY.

It’s not feeling more spiritual or attaining more spirituality. It’s so far from it. You can be MORE of your essence simply if you’re conscious of your existence…

flow from it into something else and explore…

The world, the structure, the system, the people, places, purpose, phases, paces, the pursuit of man is to FEEL and Embody the energy that is emitted from the heart to another and is received into the heart first before the mind can articulate the energy.

What am I saying?!…

A whole lotta nada. All talk is for the curiosity and satisfaction of the mind.

BUT THE HEARt, aaaH this I say..

The heart, the heart, the heart.

The HEARt is both THE strength and safety of the man.

So 2020, thank you! Covid thank you!!

You’ve served me well this year and THIS has been the greatest year for me so far.

2021 will BE even more exhilarating, blissful, and magical.

THIS I say and know.

Nothing that my mind can comprehend and analyze, but certainly what my HEARt is speaking truth of.

So I rest, home in my heart.

For I AM, Home at last.

[submitted on 2/12/2021]