The global pandemic has had a profound impact on all of our lives since it came crashing into consciousness with the shutdown of businesses, schools, houses of worship and all but the most essential services, and the heartbreaking loss of lives worldwide. I watched with daily horror the unfolding progress of a virus gone rampant. It became the most important focus for our lives, and for me personally, it has required a whole new way of looking at every aspect of my daily existence. Nothing will be the same going forward and we are all struggling with the adjustments.

I am fortunate that my family and I have resources and we are not under the stress of economic hardship or uncertainty. I count us very, very lucky indeed. My heart goes out to those who don’t have that security. We are also fortunate to have a strong support community of family and friends and we will probably not feel the brunt of the tremendous changes the pandemic will bring. Which is not to say we are immune to its impact. I have concerns for the health of my family and friends, especially my 98 year old mother, my 101 year old aunt and many elderly members of our temple. None of us will be spared from the life-altering impacts going forward.

This has been a time of deep self reflection and has brought my Shin Buddhist teachings to the forefront of my thoughts as a way to frame and understand what is happening. It has made the Buddhist teaching of impermanence immediate and ever present. The dharma has allowed me to be open to what is the evolving and ever fluid circumstance. The recent protests over the George Floyd murder are just another aspect of this truth. The teachings have also allowed me to view the tremendous pain and anger I see with compassion, understanding and sadness. And I recognize that it is easier for me to do since I am not personally the target of the rage that is erupting globally.

There is so much that needs fixing everywhere that it feels overwhelming at times. Rather than succumb to the feelings of helplessness and frustration I am choosing to try and bring peace and compassion where I can, with the immediate people and situations I have access to. I try to emulate Thich Nhat Hanh’s words, “to be the peace you want to see in the world.” And that begins right here, right now, in this moment. I will do everything I can to respond to what may come with a heart filled with compassion, grace and equanimity. It will be a continuing work in progress for the rest of my life and I have no illusions that I will succeed. As long as I am not attached to any outcomes, I am committed to doing what I can.

[submitted on 6/3/2020]