This pandemic has given me the time I needed to mourn over the ending of friendships and relationships, a very short but dragged chapter of my life. High school to me was a never-ending cycle of school, sports, work, then actively fighting gun violence. Looking back now, a year later, I was pretty close to being Super Womxn if I do say so myself. But what I realized is that I lost many friendships in the process. It was predestined to happen we do not all want the same things in life. Right after graduation all I did as I had to, was mindlessly work to raise money to attend college, never doted on the past. Then came the joy and freedom of college where I forgot all about my sadness momentarily, well to be fair, I did not have the ability nor time to sit around and be sad. Fast forward months into quarantine at the comfort of my house, the discomfort of loneliness, I found myself dreaming of those who were once in my life; sometimes regretting leaving them. I went through the cycle of grievance during this pandemic, it gifted me with time. Its out, the bitter ending to my lost friendships and relationships have been properly dealt with. I have entered a new chapter in my life, its labeled “My Success,” and I am loving writing it at the moment.

[submitted on 8/10/2020]